Koi ehsaas nahi...

Na shikva na shikayat

Ab ye ehsaas bhi karna nahi zaya

Na aansu na mohabbat

Dil ka tutna ye kis mod pe le aaya

 

Khubsurat zindagi ek kagaz ke phool jaise

Na mehekna na murjhana

Jaise zinda hone ka ehsaas hi na aa paya

 

Sang chale sab par rahe tanha

Kehna nahi peeche kya kuch chodd aaya

Ab ye ehsaas bhi karna nahi zaya

Ab ye ehsaas bhi karna nahi zaya

Broken Bonds….

A heart so lonely…

A grudge never said…
The tear that fell never….
A story of an untold heart wreck!!

 

I see the indifference…

I feel the emptiness…
The distance that only grew is us…
The broken bonds and the remains of messiness…

 

The scorching light in the day…

…and the blankness of dark night…
The dreadful weight of hollowness…
Deep sense of shallow lives…

That’s the thumping sound of a lonely heart……

Do you hear that…My Lord!!!

To my son!!

To RITURAJ….
He is the first dream I shared with you…
One person for whom our love would stay true!!
He is the one who brought us the biggest joy together…..
Who completed our world and then nothing mattered…

To VARDAAN…..
Our love for you is forever….
May you stay happy in all your endeavor…
Wherever you go…
Whatever you do….
May you always have the courage and hope…
May God gives you the strength to cope…
Today is a special day as you are turning NINE
Our little baby you always make our heart shine..
No matter whether we are around or far
In our hearts…you will stay our shining STAR…
Love you always….

Now when is when I lost you.....

And now is when I lost U

All this while you said it and I denied
In my heart I thought I knew......
When you held me in your arms and hugged me tight
It felt as if all my worries flew.....

Was it the time or was it your magic....
My head kept mum and my heart spoke logic
I dreamt with eyes open and followed you with shut eyes.....
I bestowed my trust on your unspoken true lies!

I look back in time and find nothing
Were you there ever or was life bluffing
I dwelled upon the answerless question for long
Wonder was the war really about 'the right' or 'the wrong'

I pushed and pushed and pushed you away....
My heart cried loud coz it wanted you to stay
You had to leave coz it was about me....
I asked for a life without you....that was carefree!!

And now when I lost U
All I feel is nothing.....
I realise what I needed was U
Now when I lost you.....

ye mushrufiyat kya huyee...

Apne hi masla-e-zindagi mein itne mushgool the…

Ki na teri dosti ka sajdaa kiya….na tere aansyun ki parwah....

Ek waqt tha ki mushhoor the hamari dosti ke nagmein....

Na ab koi guftagu na koi shikwa…jaise ho koi sazaa....

Mujhe maaf kar mere humsafar...

Mein durr thi jab tu kareeb tha...

Ab jo dekhu bheegi aankhon se vo raahein

anjaan nahi ki jo guzar gaya vo mera naseeb tha….

To Mom on her b'day....miss you loads.....

Aaj pehli baar...
Hum char...
Mujhe unn char dishayo se lage
Jo judd kar bhi...saath ho kar bhi na mile...
...

Kuch haasil karne ki hasrat iss dil mein liye....
Anjaan iss gum se ki kya sukuunn kho diye.....
Chalte chalte hum durr nikal aaye....
Hasraton ke baadal hum par muskarayen....

Aaj ma ka janamdin hai...
Aur mera pehla vo din hai...
Jab mein unke karib nahi....
Iss khayal ne aaj fir rulaya...
Toh dil ne majboor hoke khud hi samjhaya....

Na ro ke ab toh ye naseeb hai.....
Khuda ka shukr hai ke jin ki chahat hai vo dil ke karib hai....

Garam-Burf si Zindagi…..

Bheege khwaab liye in aankhon mein
Un ujlee raaton ke saiyon mein
Ye shor machati khamoshiyan
Garam-burf si guzurti ye zindigiyan…..
...

Badla-badla sa ye saara aalam hua
Jaana pehchana anjanaa sa maluum hua
Ret sa sarakta…ye waqt yu guzartaa
Koi purana gunah jaise qubool karta…..

Na koi dard hai mere paas
Na koi nai khushi ka aagaaz
Toh phir kyu aaj inn aankhon mein
Hai ye nami ka ehsaas……

Tere paas na hoke tere saath hone ka sukoon
Tabdeel kar detee hai
Iss garam-burf si guzurti zindagi ka rukh…..
Aur ek aawaaz si sunayee deti hai ….ki chalo thoda aur jeete hai….
Iss garam-burf si zindagi ko….chalo thoda aur jeete hai…..