To my son!!

To RITURAJ….
He is the first dream I shared with you…
One person for whom our love would stay true!!
He is the one who brought us the biggest joy together…..
Who completed our world and then nothing mattered…

To VARDAAN…..
Our love for you is forever….
May you stay happy in all your endeavor…
Wherever you go…
Whatever you do….
May you always have the courage and hope…
May God gives you the strength to cope…
Today is a special day as you are turning NINE
Our little baby you always make our heart shine..
No matter whether we are around or far
In our hearts…you will stay our shining STAR…
Love you always….

Now when is when I lost you.....

And now is when I lost U

All this while you said it and I denied
In my heart I thought I knew......
When you held me in your arms and hugged me tight
It felt as if all my worries flew.....

Was it the time or was it your magic....
My head kept mum and my heart spoke logic
I dreamt with eyes open and followed you with shut eyes.....
I bestowed my trust on your unspoken true lies!

I look back in time and find nothing
Were you there ever or was life bluffing
I dwelled upon the answerless question for long
Wonder was the war really about 'the right' or 'the wrong'

I pushed and pushed and pushed you away....
My heart cried loud coz it wanted you to stay
You had to leave coz it was about me....
I asked for a life without you....that was carefree!!

And now when I lost U
All I feel is nothing.....
I realise what I needed was U
Now when I lost you.....