Miss him...

Why don’t I stop missing him…he wasn’t that special…..
Why cant I be free of his thoughts …he wasn’t that special…….
I made myself a slave of his thoughts…..Why, I ask myself??
When I know….he wasn’t that special….
He was love of my life….but its been some time
I have outgrown n things have changed….
But I cant be free of his thoughts still…Was he that special…….?
I have got my world to look after then why do I keep looking back…
He isn’t there….n he was never there….
It was just a thought which I thought we both shared…..
There was never a pinch of love
But I realized and realized it late……
He was never there n he wasn’t that special too…
I am sure I will believe what I just realized
one day……….